Struggle

It has been a while I want to leave this job. I put too much hope at the beginning and I was sad of the outcome. The job nature is good but there are so many dark sides involve in this industry. What the boss has done may not be illegal , but it is way over what I can accepted.

At the very early beginning, I always blame myself if I am really bad as the boss does not like me. But, after discussing with my colleague, I understood more about the job and the boss. I know it is not my problem but her character and ethnics. I can not stand anymore. Even though it is not easy for me to get another job here , I do not want to work in such a environment. I hope that I can grow while working. Although I could not learn much regarding to work skill this time, I understand more about myself (what I want and what I can accept). I also trying to be more optimistics (most of my friends know I am a negative person). It has been one of my main problem which I need to overcome to make my life easier and more confident.

So, I am now trying to find another job....not much good news received yet but I willl try harder.